The longing!

God has placed a profound void within every human heart—a deep, innate longing for something infinitely greater than anything this world can offer. As Scripture affirms, He “has set eternity in the human heart” (Ecclesiastes 3:11), designing us with an eternal capacity that only He can fulfill. This built-in desire draws us toward Him, yet in our fallen state, it often pulls us in the opposite direction. We chase after pleasures, achievements, relationships, and possessions—anything we believe might finally satisfy or complete us. Our sinful nature drowns out this true longing beneath layers of competing fleshly cravings and distractions.

But the ache remains. It is God Himself who works in us, giving us both the desire and the power to pursue what truly pleases Him (Philippians 2:13). Only when we turn from lesser things and rest in Christ does the restlessness find its true home.

Lord, grant me to delight in You alone—undividedly, exclusively, and eternally. Let my heart find its sole and supreme joy in You forever. Amen.

The Sunrise from on High!

In Luke 1:78, part of Zechariah’s prophetic song (the Benedictus) captures the essence of divine visitation: after centuries of spiritual darkness—sin, oppression, and the shadow of death—the promised Savior arrives like the first light of dawn breaking over the horizon. Not a harsh glare, but a gentle, warming, life-giving radiance from heaven itself that illuminates those sitting in gloom, scatters the night, and guides feet into the path of peace (v. 79).

The “Sunrise from on high” is Jesus, the Light of the world (John 1:4–9), descending in mercy to visit and redeem. Zechariah’s words blend Old Testament hopes (like Malachi 4:2’s “Sun of Righteousness”) with the wonder of incarnation: God Himself draws near, dawn personified, to end the long night and usher in eternal day.

God opposes the proud

“Who then is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” Jesus answered by calling a little child and placing him among them. “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 18:1–3

Notice the shock of His answer. The disciples asked about greatness in the Kingdom, and Jesus responded by stating the entry criteria into the kingdom . In effect, He said: forget about who is greatest, you may not even make it in. This was not spoken to pagans, idol worshippers, or outsiders. This was spoken to disciples. Men who walked with Jesus, served Him, heard His teaching daily, and were actively involved in ministry. The warning is unmistakable: Unchecked pride can disqualify you from the Kingdom, proximity to Jesus does not guarantee entry into the Kingdom. Activity does not replace humility. Service does not cancel pride.

This was not an isolated moment. On another occasion, when the disciples returned rejoicing that demons submitted to them, Jesus shut down their celebration. “Do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you but rejoice that your names are written in heaven.” In other words: Get your priorities right!

We often speak of salvation when evangelising the world, but rarely do we turn the lens inward. Yet Scripture forces us to. Judas walked with the Twelve, heard Jesus teach day and night, handled ministry finances, and kissed the Son of God, yet never belonged to Him. (Jesus answered them, “Did I not choose you, the twelve? And yet one of you is a devil.” He spoke of Judas the son of Simon Iscariot, for he, one of the twelve, was going to betray him). That alone should terrify comfortable Christianity. It is entirely possible to be deeply involved in church, active in ministry, fluent in Scripture, admired by others, and be full of ourselves; traveling confidently down the ‘broad road’ toward the wrong destination.

Jesus Himself redefines salvation in sobering terms. “Many will say to Me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy, cast out demons, and perform miracles in Your name?’ And I will say to them plainly, ‘Depart from Me. I never knew you.’” Power is not proof of salvation. Ministry success is not evidence of intimacy. Spiritual activity can coexist with spiritual deception. Salvation is not defined by what we do for God, but by whether God knows us. And pride is one of the clearest roadblocks to intimacy. Peter confirms it plainly: “God opposes the proud.” Not ignores. Not tolerates. Opposes. God actively resists the proud, even when they are religious.

Jesus drives this point home in the parable of the Pharisee and the tax collector. The Pharisee is moral, disciplined, doctrinally sound, and visibly religious. The tax collector is an outcast—grouped by Jesus elsewhere with pagans and sinners. Yet the Pharisee prays with pride, and the tax collector prays with brokenness. One goes home rejected. The other goes home justified. Heaven closes its door to the religious man and opens it to the humble sinner. Humility changes everything. This should shake us. Jesus embraces the broken, the sinful, the ashamed, when they come low. And He may reject those we admire as godly when pride rules their hearts. God sees what we do not. He does not evaluate by visibility, reputation, or ministry output. He judges the heart.

I believe we still have Pharisees in our churches. And I believe we also have liars, manipulators, sexually broken people, addicts, and deeply flawed sinners sitting beside them. The difference is not the sin, it is the posture. One comes justified because he knows he is unworthy. The other is rejected because he assumes he is. The tax collector went home justified. The Pharisee went home deceived.

That reality should not make us debate theology. It should drive us to our knees.

Lord, expose every trace of pride in my heart—especially the kind dressed in religion, knowledge, and service. Deliver me from trusting my activity instead of my humility, my obedience instead of Your mercy, my reputation instead of Your grace. Make me low before You. Teach me to tremble more than I perform, to repent more than I impress, and to depend more than I boast. Do not let me be near Your Kingdom yet barred from entering it. Search me, break me, and keep me small, that You alone may be great in me. In Jesus’ name, amen.

What Is It That You Want?

Matthew 20:17–34. 21 “What is it you want?” he asked. She said, “Grant that one of these two sons of mine may sit at your right and the other at your left in your kingdom.” 32 Jesus stopped and called them. “What do you want me to do for you?” he asked. 33 “Lord,” they answered, “we want our sight.”

When Jesus asked, “What is it you want?” He asked it twice in the same chapter, but to very different people. In Matthew 20:21, the mother of James and John came to Jesus and asked that one of her sons would sit at His right hand and the other at His left in His Kingdom. This request came from a place of closeness, familiarity, and ambition for greatness. Later in the same chapter, two blind beggars sat by the roadside crying out desperately for mercy. Though the crowd tried to silence them, they continued to shout. Jesus stopped and asked them the same question: “What do you want Me to do for you?” Their answer was simple and honest: “Lord, we want our sight.” At first glance, the question may seem unnecessary because their need was obvious. Yet Jesus asked it anyway, because what we ask reveals what we truly desire.

When James and John’s mother made her request, Jesus responded, “You do not know what you are asking.” She was seeking position and honour without understanding the cost. Immediately after this encounter, Jesus reminded His disciples that the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many. Greatness in God’s Kingdom is not about status but about sacrifice. The blind beggars could have asked for many things. They could have asked to sit near Jesus or to be recognised by Him. Instead, they asked for mercy and for sight. Their request came from desperation, humility, and clarity of need. Though blind, they saw more clearly than those who walked closely with Jesus.

All of us are at different stages of life and carry different needs and burdens. Because of this, we ask for different things. Some seek healing, others provision, others direction. Yet it is worth pausing to ask whether our prayers are shaped more by ambition than by surrender.

Jesus Himself did not seek position at the right or left of the Father. He sought the strength and grace to fulfil His purpose, which was to serve and to give His life for others. His prayer was not for elevation but for obedience. So we must ask ourselves: What are we asking God for? Is it promotion, a bigger salary, a better home, or greater recognition? Do we ever ask God for the grace to serve others? Do we ask Him to humble us, to help us put others before ourselves, to forgive when we have been wronged, to love those who despise or humiliate us? Do we ask Him to remove bitterness, grudges, and the desire for revenge? Do we ask Him for compassion to weep with those who suffer, even when they have hurt us?

This is service. This is what Jesus meant when He spoke of greatness. When the disciples asked about sitting at His right and left, He pointed them toward humility. In the Kingdom of God, the greatest are not those who seek position, but those who are lowly and humble in heart.

Lord, search my heart and reveal what I truly want. Purify my desires and renew my mind. Teach me to ask not for position, but for grace; not for recognition, but for humility; not to be served, but to serve. Give me the strength to forgive, the courage to love when it is costly, and the humility to place others before myself. Shape my heart to desire what pleases You above all else. In Jesus’ name, amen.

God’s purpose

“You are not setting your mind on God’s purposes, but on man’s.” Jesus said to Peter in Matthew 16:23

When Jesus declared that the Son of Man must suffer, must go to Jerusalem, and must be killed, Peter stepped in to stop Him. What sounded like loyalty was actually resistance. What felt loving was, in truth, rebellion. Peter did not oppose Jesus out of hatred but out of misplaced affection. He loved Jesus, but he hated the path. He wanted the Kingdom without the cross that gives birth to it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life. (Matt 7:13, NIV).

Jesus’ response was not gentle. “Get behind Me, Satan.” “You are not setting your mind on God’s purposes, but on man’s.” That rebuke exposes something deeply uncomfortable: Peter was sincere but sincerely wrong, emotionally devoted but spiritually misaligned, close to Jesus yet opposing the will of God.

Six days later Peter stands on another mountain, this time not facing suffering but glory; the transfiguration, radiance, Moses, Elijah, heaven touching earth, and Peter speaks again. “Lord, it is good for us to be here. Let us stay. Let us build tents. Let us settle.” The irony cuts deep. Earlier Peter tried to prevent the suffering; now he tries to preserve the comfort. Two examples, same mindset. Jesus does not rebuke him this time, but could have said the same thing,’ you are not setting your mind on God’s purposes, but on man’s’. God never intended the mountain to be a destination. It was a revelation, not a residence. The glory was meant to strengthen them for obedience, not distract them from it. God’s purpose was never the mountain; it was the cross waiting below.

Jesus was possessed with purpose, and purpose shaped His perspective. Romans 12 tells us that transformation comes through the renewing of the mind so that we may discern the will of God, and Jesus lived this perfectly. His ministry was not emotional, impulsive, or reactionary; it was resolute. He knew where He was going and He refused to be distracted by comfort, fear, or spiritual spectacle.

None of us will ever carry a purpose as cosmic as Christ’s, but that does not mean our days are purposeless. At the very least every Christian shares this calling: to glorify God, to live a life that pleases Him, to walk daily in victory over sin, to witness the steady, sometimes painful transforming work of the Holy Spirit changing us from one degree of glory to another. Purpose is not always dramatic, but it is always directional. Once purpose is clear, perspective follows, and when perspective is right, excuses collapse. Perspective reshapes choices, governs reactions, dictates how we speak at home, how we behave at work, how we respond to suffering, and how we handle moments of pleasure and glory. Without purpose we chase comfort, without perspective we resist suffering and idolise experiences, we rebuke the cross and cling to the mountain, and then we wonder why we are spiritually stagnant. The problem is not lack of revelation; it is misaligned minds. Jesus’ words still stand: “You are not setting your mind on God’s purposes, but on man’s.” That sentence should haunt us until it renews and realigns our mind.

Lord, search me and expose every place where my mind is set on comfort instead of calling, on experience instead of obedience, on glory instead of the cross. Strip away false spirituality, misplaced affection, and every subtle resistance to Your will that I have dressed up as love. Renew my mind until I no longer interpret life through fear, ease, or emotion, but through Your eternal purpose. Give me the courage to follow You when the gate is small and the road is narrow. When the path leads downward rather than upward. To embrace obedience when it costs me, and to choose Your will over my preferences. Align my perspective with Your purpose, that my life would not be impressive, but submissive. In Jesus’ name, amen.

What the dogs understood

Matthew 15:21–28

Jesus withdraws into the region of Tyre and Sidon, Gentile territory. Outsider land. And from that place comes a woman with no pedigree, no covenant, no invitation. A Canaanite woman. She cries out, desperate, loud, unfiltered: “Have mercy on me, Lord, Son of David!”

And Jesus answers her with silence. No reassurance. No explanation. No religious courtesy. ‘How rude’ one could have thought!

The disciples are irritated. “Send her away.” Jesus speaks the truth without padding: “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” She does not leave. She bows lower. Then comes the statement that would have sent most of us home offended, wounded, and spiritually offended for life: “It is not right to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs.”

And here is the dividing line between offended pride (or we dress it up as self-respect) and desperate faith. She does not argue. She does not reframe the truth to protect her dignity. She does not demand her rights. She accepts reality and reaches anyway. “Yes, Lord. I know my place. But even the dogs live because crumbs fall from the table.” This woman had no reputation to protect. No seat to secure. No image to manage. Only hunger. Dogs don’t care about the table arrangement. They don’t care who is seated where. They don’t care who is speaking. They care about survival. They believe the table is full. They believe the abundance is real. They believe enough will fall to live. She ‘believed that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him (Heb 11:6, NKJV). And Jesus stops everything. “O woman, great is your faith.” Not great theology. Not great position. Great faith. Her daughter is healed instantly.

Now pause and let this confront us. She was an outsider begging for crumbs. We are sons and daughters invited to the table. She had no covenant.  We have the promise; New Covenant sealed in blood. She stood outside the house. God who raised Christ from the dead, lives in us. The power that opened graves abides in us. The fullness of the table is ours. And yet, how many of us reject the table and actually live like dogs! What a tragedy. She believed crumbs were enough to change her life. We doubt the feast is enough to transform ours. We sit at the table and live hungry. Empty. Powerless. Defeated. Still enslaved to sin. Still shaped by the flesh. Still spiritually malnourished. Not because the table is empty. Not because the invitation was unclear. But because we do not believe.

What a tragedy: Dogs fought for crumbs—and were satisfied. Sons refuse the feast—and go home starving. The table is full. The Spirit is present. The power is available. The question is no longer “Is there enough?” The question is “Do you believe?”. We are invited and live powerless. We are filled and still choose deprivation. The problem is not access. The problem is appetite. She came desperate. We come casual. She would not leave without an answer. We leave unchanged and call it Christianity.

Jesus did not commend her status. He commended her faith-born hunger. And the question hangs in the air for us: Will we live like dogs grateful for crumbs (even that would be commendable), or like sons who finally believe the table is ours?

Lord, forgive us for living beneath our inheritance. Forgive us for sitting at Your table and still choosing hunger. Awaken in us a holy desperation—not for reputation, but for transformation. Teach us to believe again. Let us not leave Your presence empty when fullness is offered. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Walking in Fear

Matthew 13:40–43, 47–51. Jesus said: “As the weeds are pulled up and burned in the fire, so it will be at the end of the age… They will throw them into the blazing furnace, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.” And then again, in the very same chapter: “The angels will come and separate the wicked from the righteous and throw them into the blazing furnace…”

Twice. Two parables. Same warning. Same outcome. And after saying it all, Jesus asked a chilling question: “Have you understood all these things?” That is what you ask when something truly matters. Somehow, we do not like to think about God and judgment. We love to talk about heaven, but we are uncomfortable talking about hell. The moment a conversation drifts in that direction, we quickly redirect it: “God is a good God. God is loving. God doesn’t want to punish anyone.” That is true. But it is also true that Jesus spoke about hell—clearly, deliberately, and repeatedly. He did not describe it vaguely. He called it a blazing furnace. And He made sure His listeners had heard and understood. Why? Because perspective saves us. For me, the reality of judgment is strangely advantageous. It recalibrates life. It shrinks trivial things. It exposes how foolish many of our conflicts are.

How often do we fight at home over nothing? Raised voices. Short tempers. Harsh words. Long silences. Pride digging in its heels. Making peace becomes harder than winning the argument. We wait for the other person to move first. “Sorry” gets stuck in our throat. And when the Spirit nudges us, we resist—because our pride feels justified. But perspective changes everything.

I once knew someone who was overwhelmed at work—emotional, stressed, known by others as dramatic. Her partner, a paramedic, was called to what began as a simple incident. It turned into a six-vehicle crash. A police officer and the paramedic were seriously injured when an intoxicated driver ploughed into their stationary vehicles. Her partner escaped with only minor injuries. The next time she came to work, she was almost uncontrollably joyful. Nothing at work had changed. The problems were still there. But she had perspective. Suddenly, what once felt unbearable no longer mattered.

This is what the fear of God does. When we remember that there is a blazing furnace, suddenly saying “I’m sorry” becomes easy. Making the first move becomes joyful. Letting go of being right becomes wise. Like Paul said, we do not want to miss out. We can argue endlessly about who is right and who is wrong. Or we can humble ourselves, please God, and rule out—even in our own hearts—the licks of the blazing furnace.

This is not a feel-good message. But it is a necessary one. Somewhere along the way, Christians have stopped walking in fear. Yes—this fear includes love, reverence, respect, and awe. But it is also plain fear as we commonly know it. The Old Testament saints knew God as a consuming fire—and they lived accordingly. They did not trivialise obedience. They did not treat repentance casually. They did not presume on grace. Jesus himself said “But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after your body has been killed, has authority to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him”.

Walking in the fear of the Lord does not make us miserable. It makes us wise. It keeps us soft-hearted. It keeps eternity in view and it helps us live today like tomorrow really matters.

Holy God, forgive us for growing casual with things You take seriously. Forgive us for trivialising sin, postponing repentance, and resisting humility. Restore in us the fear of the Lord—not a fear that drives us away, but a fear that anchors us in truth. Give us eternal perspective so that pride loses its grip and obedience becomes our joy. Teach us to walk carefully, love deeply, forgive quickly, and live wisely—knowing that You are holy, just, and worthy of our awe. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

 Holiness or Hypocrisy

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied. Mathew 5:6 ( NASB)

Lord, we must be honest before You: many of us want the appearance of holiness more than the nature of it. It is striking that many Christian leaders are not undone by smoking, drugs, or alcoholism. More often, they are exposed by illicit affairs or long confessions of bondage to pornography. Why? Because these are hidden sins. Sins that allow a man to remain entertained in secret while still maintaining a public ministry. Sins that let the sermon survive while the soul decays.

Mediocrity sets in. Familiarity replaces fear. Routine replaces reverence. Performance replaces purity. Holiness becomes something we play, not something we are. God asks us to “Be holy”, not do holy things (1 Peter 1:16). We learn how to switch it on for Sunday services, cell groups, Bible studies, and Christian gatherings. And alongside that public life, a private life of immorality and self-indulgence quietly continues. Two lives. One reputation. One hidden reality. At that point, we must ask an uncomfortable question:
Did we ever want God’s nature, or did we only want the reputation of having it?
Jesus said, “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.” (Matthew 5:6). He did not say, “Blessed are those who want to be known as righteous.”

The desire to be seen, admired, and applauded is not new. It is woven into the old man—the flesh. Scripture calls it the boastful pride of life(1 John 2:16). And this battle is daily: Will we live before men, or will we live before God? Hidden sin may survive before people, but it never survives before God. And when hidden sin is tolerated, it exposes something devastating: we were never pursuing holiness at all. We were simply using the church—its language, its platform, its culture—to chase the same thing the world chases: reputation and public approval.

Let us repent. Let us return to the words of Jesus and sit with them slowly: “Hunger and thirst for righteousness.” Not recognition. Not influence. Not visibility. Righteousness!
This must become our desire, our passion, our pursuit—every moment we live. Jesus Himself is our pattern. For the first thirty years of His life, He had almost no reputation at all. No platform. No crowds. No applause. He was not seeking to be known—He was seeking to please the Father.

And that is the call before us now. Not to protect an image. Not to polish a ministry.
But to cry out with honesty: “Lord, give us Your nature—even if it costs us our reputation.”
Because a righteousness that exists only before people is hypocrisy.
But righteousness that exists before God is Holiness.

Lord, We confess that we have often loved the praise of people more than the pleasure of Your presence. We have guarded our reputation while neglecting our hearts. Forgive us for tolerating hidden sin and calling it weakness instead of calling it disobedience. Strip us of every false image we have built and clothe us instead with the righteousness of Christ. Give us a holy hunger—not to be seen as righteous, but to truly become righteous. Search us, expose us, and transform us. We want Your nature, not a name. Your approval, not applause. Your holiness, not our image. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

My Hiding Place

I will not be afraid
For You are my hiding place-
A secure refuge, the safest space,
A shelter free from all condemnation,
A haven of unshaken confidence.

I will not fear,
For You are my hiding place.
No danger can draw near enough to harm;
I am safe, encircled by Your arms
Secure in You as in an impregnable fortress

I will not be found by the enemy,
For you are my hiding place.
I am hidden with Christ in You;
None who intend harm can see me through,
For I am concealed, O Lord, in You.

I will not be anxious,
For You are my hiding place.
None can disturb this perfect peace;
My confidence is in You-and You are my confidence;
My trust is in You-and You are my trust.

And more than this: 
You cover me with songs,
Songs of deliverance.
The Rock of ages, cleft for me,
Let me hide myself in Thee.

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When a Brother Falls

Today I heard that a widely respected Christian author and preacher, now 76 years old, a man who has spent almost a lifetime writing books that have blessed millions, has confessed to an affair that lasted eight years. This is not the first time we have heard such news. We remember others, public servants of God, who fell during the COVID period, some of whom are no longer alive to speak for themselves. And as the news broke, my mind did not rush to his sin. It drifted to our response.
 
What I witnessed
Within hours, clips flooded YouTube and social media; shock, disbelief, outrage.
“How could this happen?”. “How did he fall so far?”. Then came the predictable chorus: name-calling, public disqualification, mockery, speculation, exaggeration, ridicule, targeted humiliation; mostly from fellow Christians. The church did not pray.  It pounced. Like a pride of hungry lions on a wounded deer, we ripped and tore while he was still alive. We called it “discernment.” We called it “protecting the flock.” But what it often was, was self-righteous cruelty dressed in spiritual language. Yes, there will be consequences. He will step down from leadership. He will likely never be received the same way again. His future words will be filtered through suspicion. Friends will quietly distance themselves. His name, once spoken with respect, honour and gratitude, will now be spoken with shame and disgrace. In short, he will be rejected. And perhaps the most tragic part: he will feel condemned, not only by his own conscience, but by the very community that preaches forgiveness, mercy and grace. If not now, when else can we practice what we preach!.
 
Joseph’s Response
Consider Joseph. When he discovered that Mary was pregnant, the most natural conclusion was betrayal. He had every legal and cultural right to expose her. Public shaming would have been justified in the eyes of the law. But Joseph chose another way. He resolved to step back quietly. No spectacle. No naming and shaming. No moral theatre. His restraint was not weakness, it was righteousness. The only reason he acted at all was obedience to God, not a hunger to be proven righteous.
 
God’s Response
Now let us pause and look at God’s pattern, not ours. Scripture tells us of a man who lived long ago, a man God Himself called “a man after My own heart.” God lifted him from anonymity, from tending sheep, from running for his life, and seated him on a throne as king. That man abused his power. He took another man’s wife and arranged her husband’s death. He lived in deception for over a year, continuing his public duties as if nothing had happened. If ever there was a case for permanent disqualification, this was it. And yet, when confronted and broken in repentance, God did something amazing. He forgave him. Not only that, God allowed him to continue to write and minister. God published his prayers, poems, and songs, not in an obscure appendix, but at the very heart of Scripture. Thousands of years later, God did not introduce him primarily as “the adulterer” or “the murderer”. God remembered him as David and the ultimate honour; Jesus Himself was called the Son of David. This does not minimise David’s sin. It magnifies God’s mercy. God did not pretend the sin never happened, but He also refused to let sin have the final word. He always has the final word, in all things. He is God,…remember? Sovereign and supreme.
 
….And Now Us
How do we respond when someone else falls? Do we forward the news under the banner of “discernment” while spreading gossip? Do we disguise curiosity as concern?
Do we host prayer meetings and Bible studies that quietly feed on scandal; a hot coffee, a cold heart, a cynical mind and caustic remarks. We say, “He let us down.” But I ask, what promise did he ever make to you? We act betrayed, as if our faith was anchored in a man rather than in Christ. This is not a call to excuse sin. This is not a plea to ignore accountability. But it is a warning: that while we point out that he failed to guard his heart, we must guard our own hearts from becoming ‘Pharisaical’. “God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.” (Luke 18:9-14 NIV). Jesus says the tax collector went home justified,  while the religious man went home condemned.

A fallen preacher should cause fear, not fascination. Tears, not triumph. Self-examination, not self-exaltation. Because when a brother falls, the real question is not “How could he?” . That is between God and him.